Where I belong…

It is Thanksgiving weekend and we are on a long road trip. During the drive there and back I am writing my weekend post. I am trying to decide which stories to keep and which to ignore. Ideas float around my head, each vying for my attention, hands up waving and jumping up and down saying, “pick me, pick me!” When they are all begging to be heard, it is hard to decide which one to choose. So I write until one becomes bigger than the others. I call this my rambling. It is a healthy spew of words that clutter the mind until I am left with something that has substance. Since it is Thanksgiving, I assumed I was to write about being thankful – but I ended up rambling on and on until a lesson began to appear. A lesson I needed to learn. This first paragraph of this post is actually the last paragraph of that rambling.  I am learning how important it is to rewrite. Just because a paragraph emerges at the end does not mean it can’t be moved to the beginning. Birth order of paragraphs is not important as long as the story is told. Continue reading

Upside Down World….

Friday was a stunning day and a wonderful ending to a brutal week. The first part of the week was cold and windy with a dusting of snow. Snow before Thanksgiving does not leave much hope for a mild Tennessee winter. Next week starts the stressful holiday season with Thanksgiving and I can feel the first prickles of dread begin to form. When the weather is mild it is easy to forget winter is around the corner. I force myself to put down my to do list and walk outside. The lake calls out to me, beckoning me for a visit. It has been a long time since I have sat at its shoreline. I grab my camera and hike the short distance, recalling a time when I walked this journey on a daily basis. Continue reading

To be seen and not heard…

My family spent last Saturday morning working hard getting their chores done so they could play.  I had promised myself a morning of writing. I tried to concentrate but the noise and commotion of people being busy distracted me.  My frustration boiled to a point of no return and I had to let off steam.  “I give up” I ranted and dramatically, I cleaned up and shut down and stomped off. Continue reading

Around and around….

I spent the last five hours trying to write. Writer’s block has a hold on me and I can’t shake it off. I have come up with every excuse imaginable to not even try. I usually draw my inspiration from being outside in my garden, but it is too cold. This morning, I got up too late and lost the “quiet time” that I know is required to do this. The noise level in my house is huge, with teenage musicians and their electric guitars and dogs barking at imaginary visitors. Continue reading

Am I a zombie?

The Walking Dead has entered our family home. We are hooked on the TV show and we feed our addiction with one show per night. Although sometimes it is a family event, it is mostly my youngest and I faithfully turning it on each night. I am spending quality time with my child.  We do have interesting conversations about zombies and he laughs when I hide my eyes. I am running out of things to share with him, if it is zombies that bring us closer together than so be it. Continue reading

The Keeper of the Family History….

Daily Post Discover Challenge.

During the winter months, I would turn my creative outlet to scrapbooking. I would spend hours designing a layout for my pictures and in choosing a color scheme. I would also include a well thought journal entry describing the happy event. I love the way the books looked sitting on my shelf. Multi-color bindings each marked with its year in bold numbers, holding between its cover the year’s fondest memories. The books stop at the year 2008 as if to say good days ended here, which of course, is not true.

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Mocking Birds….

I’m having a hard time finding quiet time.  The mornings are too dark and cold.  It also has rained most of the week.  There was one beautiful day scrubbed cleaned by the rain.  I dropped everything to spend a few minutes outside in the sun and noticed new growth everywhere.  The garden has forgotten that winter is around the corner and comes alive after a much needed rain.  A beloved rose, once thought as dead now shows signs of new growth.  I rejoice in this beautiful moment, made even more complete by a flock of birds flying in unison in the cloudless sky.  They seem to dance on the wind, shifting and turning to music that only they could hear.  Were they rejoicing too? Continue reading

Seasons…

Butterfly on flower

My sanctuary was cold and dark this morning. Fall’s arrival to me is bittersweet. I long for the break of hot, sticky days and constant watering to keep my plants alive. Tired of the mosquitoes and bugs that plague my space. Yet what was the coolest time of the day is now the coldest, and where I begged for the sun to be hidden by a cloud, I now long for it to burst forth and warm my face. Continue reading

What to do after forgiveness ….

I transplanted Ryan’s Rose and it looks like it might die. Ryan’s friends gave it to me on the day of his funeral. I have kept it alive for over five years and it was happy where it was. I planted it there because I had no other place to put it at the time. Last week I dug it up and moved it to the new garden with its completed stone path. From the place I call the sanctuary and where I spend my quiet time, the rose is framed beautifully by my arbor. Continue reading